I am so DONE ! Why am I the only one who can Do anything in this house...

4 people live here and several pets and the only one who lifts a finger to do a damn thing is ME !!! its BS the stbx is a 50 year old man, my kids are 16 and 10 and I have tried to not do it all because i was wearing myself out and spending 90% of my time cleaning and five minutes later its a dump again. So i quit , now thrte is not ONE CLEAN dish in the house, the floor is covered w stuff and garbage, toys everywhere etc . We got in a huge nasty fight last tuesday bc i said it was crap nobody did anything and the'd be sorry they didnt treat me better when im gone, and the 16 yr old tells me no thwy wont bc they dont need me, so i said yea ? So whos gonna clean do laundry dishes etc ?? The kid snarls WE WILL !!! Meanwhile the jerk stbx is agreeing they dont need me. REALLY??? Im so SICK of them all having fun going places and doing things , playing games and yukin it up with their buddies while i work like a slave. The shithead 16 yr old just had the nerve to pitch a hissy bc somebody messed with the pile of crap im his room. Well hell ! Its a pile of clothes, boxes, boots, MX gear etc and the boots left dirt all over the clothes so i dug them out to wash them and i get my butt chewed for it !!!!?? O HATE IT HERE. im desperate to move out, finding an apartment is a royal pain, NOBODY acepts pets, and I CANT go w/o my babydog and finding a 2 bathroom , 2 bedroom is a challenge to. I finally found one and the rental ppl want 35$ per application and thats 70 bucks! What if they dont like what they see on the ap ? Im out 70 bucks ? Then they want 50 to check out the dog plus a note from my doc saying he's a service dog, which involves an appointment w the doc. Plus 150 $ move in fee and a 600$ deposit !!!' where am i supposed to come up w all tjat $$$!!!???? I havent worked since i had the 2nd kid so stbx has to fill out the app too and hes a JERK about it. Im just so tired and unappreciated and stressed and I just want to get something DONE accomplished, the move, set up to start college, the divorce etc etc SOMETHING but it all involves more time energy and a frickin computer ! Which we dont have. I cant even apply for a JOB w/o a puter. ! I cant find time to go to the library or neighbors to use one , im just TIRED and stressed and nobody gives a damn. I want something to go right, easy
Anything just to give me a hopefull boost , uno ?